Day 61: Work

“It's going to be tough, but I honestly think that if you're truly extraordinary, you're going to be OK. I'm clinging to that good feeling I get from people. Having that career momentum, the sky's the limit.” Joseph Wright

I really do not enjoy my current job. It's monotonous. It's boring. It's extremely repetitive. The management system is horrible. The company runs everything backwards. The pay sucks. But it gets me through the day, and one day at a time I'm working towards my future.

I cannot wait to start my career as a Nurse. It's still a distance off, but I am getting there slowly but surely. I also want to start a side job business of doing computer repairs, upgrades, and builds. Extra income.

 I want to explore my photography hobby, take more classes, and try to get some side work doing that as well. In January I had my first ever paying photo shoot, of my Niece for her birth announcements.

My current job, is not the best job, and it's definitely not the worst job. I need to really start looking for a better job though, of any sort, that I can work, while I continue my education. It's a catch twenty-two though, because my current job, while it doesn't pay the best, and is very dull; I have great benefits, and tuition reimbursement for my classes. Part of me thinks, I need to just stick it out here and deal with this job. I'm lucky and fortunate to have a full time job in Michigan given the current state of the economy.

Sometimes I just need to be more thankful for my job, and that while I'm not making a lot of money, I'm able to live on my own, and take care of myself.

Work harder. Continue to focus on my career, and securing better employment for my future. Don't stress about my current situation, but focus on my future.

Day 26: Money

Money is not the most important thing in the world. Love is. - Unknown

Over the past several months I've learned some things about money. I'm not ever going to be rich, and I don't really ever want to be rich. I only want to be successful in what I do, and be able to live comfortably. Right now I'm living, and getting by but not comfortably. Once I become a Nurse that will change, but that is a long ways off at this point.

I've realized money is not the most important thing in this world. The most important things in this world are free. Money cannot buy you happiness, never has, never will. It can by you things to try to fill the void in your life, but it cannot buy you happiness.

In our relationship, I was often selfish when it came to money; and I'm sure I often used it as a way to control things. It wasn't right. She didn't have very much money, due to working part time and going to school full time. I didn't have very much money either, because my job doesn't pay much. We mostly lived on my money. She took care of her personal bills, I took care of mine and the rent. There were times where I could have helped her more, when I did sometimes have money available, and I never offered. I was selfish, and rude. She's helped me more times than I can count when I've needed a little extra money just to get through the week, or brought me groceries when my fridge was empty. She also paid for our whole Vegas trip last year, spent several thousands of dollars, we had a blast. It was a quick trip, and it's easty to forget how much money was spent.

She was going through one of the msot stressful times of her life, and I wasn't supportive of her. That's what she wanted most, was support. Instead we often ended up in fights about our finances and how tight money was. She wasn't trying to take my money from me, I wasn't trying to take her money from her. We were both just stressed out and very financially stressed. Last year was a very hard year financially for both of us.

Our rent always got paid, and we never starved. Our power never got shut off. Things got rough sometimes, but we always some how made it to the next payday.

Money is really not worth fighting over. You either have it or you don't; if you don't; there's no point in fighting about it. In a relationship you have to work together as a team, and support each other. Even when life gets stressful, and the going gets tough, you have to be strong and staycalm. Arguing about it just made the situation more stressful, tore us apart, and pitted us against each other.

I wish I had realized this sooner.

I'm trying to help and support her now as much as I can.
Luckily she's still my friend.

Money will come and money will go. Money is not everything.