Day 5: Alcohol

Let me start this off, by making it clear that I am not an alcoholic.

Last night I did something very dumb after class. I stopped at the liquor store and bought a Fifth of Captain Morgan, and a 2-Liter of Coke. Went home, turned on Grey's Anatomy and began to drink. I drank nearly the whole fifth within an hour. Wasn't wasted, but was definitely really buzzed, and drunk.

I then proceeded to text her, and tell her I was drunk. Very dumb. Not cool.

I am not an alcoholic, and that was the first time I'd ever really sat at home, and drank alone. Other than a beer or two.

Drinking liquor alone, is what alcoholics do. I am not an alcoholic. I have alcoholics in my family, and I know I must be careful with myself, or I too could become an alcoholic. I rarely get drunk, and rarely drink more than a 6 pack of beer. I do like drinking beer, and having a few, but I do not like getting wasted, and out of control. I'm usually out of control enough.

Alcohol is not going to help me focus on me, and become a better person. I must put the bottle down for a while, and focus on me. I want to change, and be a better me, with everything inside of me. Alcohol worsens my anger and agitation. It increases my ADHD. It causes me to be stupid sometimes.

I must focus on me, and remove alcohol from my life for now. Once I have control and can clearly focus, then  I can drink in moderation, and with care.